Read This When You're Having A Perfectly Wonderful Moment And You Want To Ruin It With Sadness Porn.

Hey buttercup!

I'm writing to you in my teddy bear onesie I've had since highschool. I'm feeling so yummy after a long righteous day of hard work, exercising, juicing, re-arranging my furniture, and a good cozy nap with my husband.

I'm looking around and I'm thinking, how did this happen?

When did my life get SO DAMN GOOD?!

When did it stop being a catastrophe, a tragedy?

When did I learn how to let myself be happy?!

Joy snuck in and it's here to stay and it kinda freaks me out.

Happiness and joy are the most DIFFICULT emotions to stomach. I shit you not.

Before I tell you why, let's talk the difference between happiness and joy.

Happiness is reliant on something going right, appreciating the small things, like tasting snow on your tongue.

Joy is this deep adoration and gratitude for all things. It is never lost. It only gets covered sometimes.

They are so hard to let in (especially for us brilliant ones who survived hell and are here to tell the story to inspire others!) 

Just the other day I was having one of these comfy, cozy, easy going moments when my life feels so good and brilliant, and I IMMEDIATELY turned on "K-Fucked" in my brain and tried to freak myself out.

I dish a bit about K-Fucked in a recent live video HERE and what to do with it. 

I started thinking about this friend who royally hurt my feelings at one point and who is no longer in my life.  I said to myself, "Here I am happy and I'm going to go and make a list of negatives of why I shouldn't be!! Ridic." Then I got myself back on the grateful train.

The work I do in the mentorship is all about how to make space for the GOOD. It's about giving you what you need so you let in more kindness and less of that yucy self-sabotage. Then you can do ANYTHING and become UNSTOPPABLE. No excuses babe!

We all need lots of help around this and motivation to keep our heads in the game, even when life does the funky chicken. Especially when we are natural born healers, leaders, and world changers! We feel EVEN MORE than the average bear!!

The reason why depression and anxiety are SO DAMN SEDUCTIVE is because it can be literally wired into our head and kept consistent with our behavior.  Thank goodness we can also practice happiness and ultimately teach our bodies to re-wire and let some juicy fun in. It's a constant choice.

I'm feeling good and alive and then BAM I see hair on my chin and start to feel gross and then CHOOSE to let the thought go. Hair that NO ONE EVER SEES or points out, but of course is SO OBVIOUS AND LIFE THREATENING TO ME!!!

Girl next time you want to freak out over anything, have your freak out, and then do something that makes you feel good. ANYTHING. Teach your brain it's okay to enjoy life and let the freak outs get smaller and more seldom! For you have a legacy to create and there's just no time for anything else!!!!

You got dis.

                                                                     Love,

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